Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Mon, 30 Mar 2009

Dear Everybody,

I don't have a lot of time today for sure--we actually took our P-Day on Saturday so we could go to the temple. It was amazing. But that means we don't get a P-Day this week. That is definitely less than amazing.

Having two P-Days in a week cuts the work down a bit, but that's just how it is sometimes. Let me tell you something about the temple--it's amazing. I have never felt peace the same as I do in the temple. It's like, peace concentrate. If you can go to the temple, go. If you can't yet--get ready for it. It's worth it. But you have to prepare for it. It won't mean a thing to you if you aren't prepared for it. It's like reading through a Calculus manual when you're still in 7th grade math. It just doesn't make sense, although you'll recognize some things.

Random, I know. I do love being a missionary. I hate not having enough time to clean my house. So sometimes I just go on a cleaning spree during personal study, like I did today. . . Which means I'll have to make up for that during lunch. It'll be good though, because now I have a place to study. Bleh. I hate a messy house.

Moving on. I love you. This last transfer has been really hard in weird ways, so I appreciate the support I get from the few and faithful of you. I'm sorry for not writing this last transfer, but if you had been me you would have understood. It's been a little crazy around here. I think I'm finally back on track though. Just with about 7 more people to write back to. . .

I'd like to thank all my faithful readers out there, and may the Lord bless you. Peace.

Love,
Hna. Crowley

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Mon, 23 Mar 2009: Photos


Flowers for my brithday,


the front door Hna. Corless and Martinez decorated for me when I got home that night,


the cool grow-animals they gave me,


all the cards and stuff I got,


and me opening presents birthday morning--the charm necklace was my favorite.

Funny story--that night I was taking off the necklace, and the charm went down the drain. I didn't let anyone use the sink for three days--until the maintenance guy could come and he got it out for me. I love that thing. And I love that you put it together for me. I'll show you more pictures--my St. Patty's birthday cake (just clover sprinkles. So yummy!)

Gotta go! Love you!

Mon, 23 Mar 2009

Dear Fam and Friends,

I'm going to cheat and send you the letter I wrote to President, because it really just sums it all up.

"Dear President Beck,

Baptized: 0
Confirmed: 0
At Church: 1
Member Present Lessons: 10
New Investigators: 7

Tracting: 4.5 hours
Lessons: 30
LA/RC Lessons: 7

(We taught 40 lessons last week. Whoohoo!)

Morning Schedule: 4 out of 7

I will give excuses for the morning schedule--there were two days that I couldn't fall asleep until 3:30. This morning, I somehow managed to knock the alarm clock under my bed. . .

I knew this week would be better, and it was. This week was a miracle week. I feel like it was one of those, after the trial of your faith comes the miracle. Not only did we get 40 lessons this week along with 4.5 hours of tracting, we saw changes in our current investigators--we have been able to click with them and they have told us the things that are in the way of them progressing. We have been able to really pinpoint the opposition so it can be dealt with. We brought our recent convert Adan to a lesson with a part-member family, and the Sergio and Adan clicked, and Adan shared a powerful testimony, enough that Sergio was saying by the end--I hope that's how it works out for me--with a big smile on his face.

We also had a man in the English ward commit to baptism. We'll be setting up a date in our next lesson.

I know that these things have been happening because of our faith, the efforts of our wards, and our diligence. We really applied what we learned about finding and setting goals from the Sisters Conference, and it worked. We had twelve lessons in one day! It was amazing. I am looking forward to this coming week, because now we have finally started figuring this out.

President, I'll tell you something--I have been praying really hard that the Lord will keep me in this area, with Estrella AND Garden Lakes. And Estrella has grown so much since we before were having problems. There are still kinks, but things are definitely moving upward. I really hope the Lord keeps me here to continue doing the work that I have started, and I am trying to be the best missionary, continuing the friendships and relationships of trust I have built with these investigators and families. So I know, therefore, that if I am transferred, it is for a very good reason.

I loved the Sisters Conference. Most of our good numbers came after that--it was very rejuvenating. I was glad to give that talk, and I felt the Spirit so strongly as I prepared it because I have focused on that subject for most of my life. I love this work, and I love this gospel. Seeing miracles is pretty cool.

I hope you and Sister Beck and the office are all doing well. We''ll see you at transfers! I'm still working on those lesson plans. They're harder than I thought. . .

Que Dios les bendiga, cuidense

Sincerely,
Hna. Crowley"


I gave a talk at the Sisters conference we had this week--how to stay positive through adversity. That's honestly something that has been a main focus of mine for a few years--because it's something I've had a hard time with. I felt the Spirit a lot as I prepared that talk, it was kinda cool.

Today we've got a lot of stuff to do, so I better go--but I wanted to tell you all that Heavenly Father really does work in miracles. I have seen them. And any time I start to doubt, I pray harder and apply myself more--then I see the miracles again. Something that will help if you find yourself doubting--take a notebook and write, at the end of the day, all the different ways you saw the Lord's hand in your life that day. It will be hard at first, but believe me--you'll start recognizing His hand more than you ever have before. And recognizing that carries you through the hard stuff. It's pretty powerful.

Bro Hansen, that is so weird that Elder Hansen is back! And Audrey's halfway there--did you know that my half way is next month? We come home pretty close it sounds like.

Paul, thanks for the birthday email. You made my day. :D

Sister Rosser, I appreciate the thought. I'm looking forward to my 23 birthday party with you there. Maybe you should plan me a surprise party. . . Heehee. And TELL SISTER LINDSEY HI FOR ME!!! I love her.

I'll go now. I hope you all are well, and you enjoy this carta. I'll attach a couple fotos I think are cool. Paz fuera.

Love,
Hna. Crowley.

Mon, 16 Mar 2009: Wazzup?

Dear Everybody,

This last week was hard. One of those I-feel-really-inadequate-I-just-do-everything-wrong weeks. Satan was really doing a number on me. But I think I pulled through it, because we saw miracles yesterday.

Goal for last week was to find 5 new investigators. By Sunday, we had only found 1. So our district leader (who is really awesome, by the way) asked us to please do all we could to at least find 2 new investigators, to meet the Zone goal of 3. So we prayed hard. And again, I was feeling like crap. But as I prayed mightily with my companion, and on my own, and really promised the Lord that I would repent of my short-comings and do everything that I could to be worthy to help the work in this area, I started feeling better about what we would do. Then, we were literally guided to a street to go tracting, and within 45 minutes of talking to people and knocking doors (we actually only got through 4 doors) we found a family. I had been praying really hard to find a family for our English ward, because they have been working so hard to be ready for missionary work, and I felt like they needed something for their faith. We found an English family. Well, actually, Arabic, but they speak English. They're Muslim, and from Palestine. They love hearing about Jesus and watching videos--so I said we have the perfect video for you. I really have a lot of faith in this family--I am going to work so hard to be prepared to teach this family with power, to be able to bring them to a knowledge of Jesus Christ and find a testimony in the truth. Can I tell you something? That's pretty daunting. But I know the Lord led us to their door for a reason, so I'm excited to see what happens.

Also, we've been working a little with this part-member family--a returned-sister missionary and her non-member spouse living with her fully-active parents--he is so inundated with the Gospel, it's ridiculous. They've been married 2 years, and it's a surprise he's lasted this long. He rocks. He cooked us dinner last night, and his wife made me a birthday cake! It was carrot. It was SOOOO good. And then we watched the Testaments with them, because that's the only Church movie he hasn't seen yet. It was powerful. The whole room was sniffling. Then Hna. Sepulveda and I both shared our testimonies about how we know the Book of Mormon and the Bible are here to testify of Jesus Christ. That He lives. And, even more, He knows us each by name, and He is there to heal us and forgive our sins.

David has had a lot of bad experiences with churches in his life, so that's why he is so standoffish about this one. But yesterday, I told him if there was even a little bit of a desire to know these things are true, that is enough, and he should follow it. Like a seed, it will start small, then grow. But you have to take care of it. So we invited him to start doing something--praying with his wife. He was kind of . . eh. . . but of course his RM wife was all--oh, we'll do it. Then he said something amazing--"Don't take my reluctance to read as a sign that I'm not coming around." My heart is so full of joy. And after a week of being weighed down with this and that, I know that the Lord gave me the comfort and reprieve that I needed through seeing these miracles and feeling His Spirit stronger than ever.

Sis Michaelson, sounds awesome! I am so excited to come back and be in your stake again. Missionary work really is the best work in the Church. I am sad that you're not in the singles ward. But who knows? When I get married, maybe we'll be in the same ward! Thanks for the email. I'm glad to know you've been getting mine. :D

All the rest of you I owe letters to: I have nothing to do today, so expect something in the mail soon. You can hate me if you want though. I'm a butt. I miss you all, I've just been overwhelmed. Being senior companion is hard. My comp rocks, but it doesn't change the fact that now I have to do all the moving and shaking, and I'm supposed to know how this all works. Well, I'm definitely learning. And Preach My Gospel has become my best friend. . . .

That email was kind of long, but I hope you enjoyed the stories. If not, too bad. I need to save them in case I don't get it into my journal. . . Lol.

Que Dios los cuide, yo oro por todos Uds. Andele, pues.

Con carino,
Hna. Crowley

Mon, 9 Mar 2009

Hello once again!

We had a baptism this week. Oh my goodness, it was awesome. Adan is one of those guys you talk to and think--he's going to really help build the Church. He will do so well.

Funny story of the week: I get to the chapel for Adan's baptism, and Hna. Martinez and Corless are already there, and Adan shows up, and everything is great--then Hna. Martinez asks me a question: Did you remind him to bring a towel? Oops. Oh well, we've got an extra one at home, we'll run and get it. Then she asks an even greater question: Did you remind him to bring extra underwear?

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I'm going to tell you right now--I can finally say I know what it means to be mortified.

We ran home and grabbed a towel for him--I was just flipping out because I felt like such an idiot--and I left hna. Martinez to handle the underwear thing because I just couldn't. Hey, I had to field the awkward chastity questions after she left, so it's her turn. Anyway, we get back and I give Adan the towel and ask him, so where's Ammon? (His friend who was going to baptize him.) He said, "Buena pregunta (good question)." So I'm thinking, crap. The guys who's going to baptize him is late. So I asked him again, and he said--"Oh, he's on his way. He just had to stop at WalMart to get me some chonies. (Aka underwear.)" I walked out of the room laughing. But not happy laughter--the crazy kind of laughter that could be confused with psychosis.

I just stood outside for a minute with Hna. Corless (she followed me out, because I didn't wait for any companion) and cooled off, then when I went back into the room. Hno Diaz (counselor in bishopric) told me to go play the piano to chill out. So I did, and I ignored everything else til we went to go take photos. I'll send those through the email next week.

The rest worked out great. Well, except the part when Ammon didn't say Adan's full name, so I had to run up to the front and let them know that it's Adan RUIZ Marquina. So he was baptized twice. He said afterward that it was a good thing--there was so much sin in him that they had to do it the second time to get the rest of it. Lol.

Then he bore his testimony at the end, and we were crying. He cried as he expressed his love for Ammon and his family--they were the ones who brought him to that point. Then he thanked us missionaries too. We really didn't do much, but I know we will be friends forever.

I can't explain the joy that comes from seeing your friend make that step of faith that you know will bring him the full happiness that comes from living Christ's Gospel. It's overwhelming. Needless to say, I'm still emotionally exhausted from that day.

And then he was confirmed yesterday, also by Ammon, and the blessing was so sweet. Now he's a member. I can't believe it. I have honestly see someone change their life around because they knew that this is true. Imagine how much stronger my own testimony is now. It's pretty amazing.

As hard as this life can be, I would never change this for the world. I love being a missionary. Having the luxury of devoting myself 100% to the work that the Lord has called us all to do. Do it. It's amazing, and it will bless your life in indescribable ways.

I love you all, and I am excited to talk to you again.

Until next week,
Hna. Crowley

Mon, 2 Mar 2009

Dear Fam/Friends

Yes, it is now March, which means we are now back up into the 80s. I had forgotten how much I love being warm. Not that it ever got cold here, but really. Maybe I'll just move to Arizona when I grow up! Who knows?

My new companion and I get along really well--especially since we both like to work and be obedient. And she's healthy. It's nice, because now I'm not the only one getting up in the morning, which definitely makes it easier. Of course, the fact that I have been feeling more exhausted than ever makes getting up harder. . .

I got hit with a cold, then allergies last week, so I was kind of blah. Plus I haven't been sleeping well--that's finally catching up to me. I've always slept so solidly, but now. . . Hna. Sepulveda told me I talked in my sleep the other night. I don't do that normally, so I think I'm finally feeling mission stress. . . Lol.

The work in the area is VERY good. Well, as in, it has a lot of promise. My last companion and I were able to get a lot moving, and now I'm with a companion who can work more so we're just going to tear it up. I have a lot of faith in blessings that come from obedience.

Adan is getting baptized THIS SATURDAY!!! He told us he wants to do it at 10:00 am, and I thought that was weird but oh well. What can you do? We just have to make sure none of the wards are having baptisms for their 8-yr-olds.

We're also teaching his aunt and uncle--and they are doing great. We just have to get them to church, but that should be pretty easy with Adan laying the foundation for them.

In our English ward, things are still pretty. . . in the air. I don't know. We have one man with a lot of promise--David, whose wife is having triplets TODAY. Whoa, that's weird. After him, though, we haven't really pulled a lot out. It's really hard focusing on two wards. But Garden Lakes has the leadership support we need to get stuff going. We just need to be more organized. All of our work with them is in less-active and part-member families. It's pretty cool.

I'm trying to think if there is anything exciting to say. I'm going to the chiro again today. . .uhh. . . Oh, I get to hang out with Hna. Corless again today! I miss her. She was an awesome trainer.

Yeah, I got nothing. I'm boring.

Oh wait, one more--Adan fasted yesterday! It was so cool! We taught him about fasting last week, and we told him it was Fast Sunday, and he agreed to do it! Then at church he was telling me how hungry he was. It was funny. We'll ask him how it went later.

Ok, that's really all for now. Gotta go get stuff done!

Love,
Hna. Crowley